1 Year? No Way!

As most of you know 1 year ago today my life changed forever!  I just can not believe its been a year.  I have watched my sweet baby Henry transform into a little boy in what felt like a snap of a finger.  I knew nothing of what "love" truly felt like until this little boy came into my life!  Henry Everett Lueders, your still and always will be one of the best things that has ever happened to me.  You woulf be "the" beat thing but, then came wyatt so now you share the prize!  Love u to pieces Henry even your new and old annoying habits( like duck lips and the infamous "whats that").  Happy 1st Birthday Baby!

I'm In Love

Alright no more looking, I have found the love of my life!  Okay until Patrick Dempsey knocks at my door.  My love is completely perfect for me in every way imaginable!  Oh how I love my Keurig machine!

And The Answer Is?

Well as most of us know having kids is HARD work!  Having kids 11 months apart is NUTS!  Don't get me wrong I LOVE my kids to pieces.  I have a routine now and I don't like getting it messed with at all!  I get up about 1/2 hour to an hour before everyone in my household which makes it around 5 am.  I do the dishes which usually consist of bob's ice cream bowl from the night before and a few bottles.  I make my coffee, I start some laundry, and maybe squeeze in a shower.  By now at least Bob or Henry or both are up.  I get Henry prepared for the day, start his breakfast.  Usually mid breakfast for Henry, Wyatt wakes up hungry.  I start feeding Wyatt while I finish Henry's meal, then get Wyatt dressed.  Then, I can play with the boys awhile.  Next, is lunch time...usually pretty easy, Wyatt sleeps well around this time of day and Henry eats well!  Nap times get hectic, 1 goes down and 1 wakes up!  Anyhow, you get the point...my routine doesn't really involve Bob.  His routine has been the same for WAY too many years and lets face it, his didn't include kids(just a dog).  Well, I was lucky to get mornings til eight out of him as long as I did. 
  I don't like hating on people but sometimes, a person has to vent in order to not go out of their minds! 
  I don't think I could have picked a more self-centered man in this world...like seriously, example:  He comes home tonight just as I'm getting the first child to sleep, I still have 1 to go...it's been quite a night with them so far.  Bob then asks about supper!  HA! I hadn't had time to think about supper yet and its 7, so he says "well, Cowboy Bob needs a ride home and will probably want to stop and grab a bite to eat."  Okay fine go, I guess I expected a simple....can I bring you something home?  Instead I get...I'll be back. 
  I have so much to think about here...is this what I want to deal with the next however many years?  Not only is that the ultimate issue but, I'm starting to see this house in ways I didn't before.  Henry is practically walking now, we have a pellet stove in our living room.  HMMMM? How in the world am I to keep him away from that?  IMPOSSIBLE
  We are completely out of room.  As good as it sounded when Wyatt was a surprise in my belly that we were going to be building on...WHEN?  Let's be honest...Henry's room is now ruined and probably gonna end up molding and useless, that leaves me what choice.  I wish I had all the answers in life...but, that would be way too easy.

That Really Yanks My Chain

Last night on the news I see this picture of a girl come on screen.  She has just been arrested.  She has bags under her eyes that are darkened, she looks drunk/stoned.  What was she arrested for you might ask?  Going out drinking all day and leaving her 9 month old twins home alone.  Aka...child neglect two counts cause their twin babies.  So, the kids are with their grandma and the chick will appear in court, she will probably do herself a little jail time but, then if she jumps through a couple hoops she will get another shot at being a "mom". 
  This REALLY pisses me off.  It is mothers like this that should be locked up forever and take out their womanhood so they can't have anymore kids.  I have multiple friends that are unable to have children that would make wonderful parents.  A classmate that because of a battle with childhood cancer, can not have kids.   I hear him amd his wife are working at their foster parenting license.  Good! They are great people.  It would be hard to do though because in situations like this idiot mother, you could just get attached to these babies and BOOM they could be gone again. 
  A couple other friends looked into full adoption.  Their credit and every aspect of their lives gets examined.  Is that really worth it?  They even ask for bank statements!  I'm pretty sure no one asked for my credit score or account balances when I got pregnant.  Now I realize we want the best for these children but, money doesn't buy love.  A thorough background check seems to be more important to me.  I guess the point I'm getting at is that, maybe after these mothers screw up that badly, with children that young, we have to think how much joy those kids still could bring some people in this world.  Yes, they went to their Grandma in this case which is wonderful, keep children in their families when possible.  Yet, if not possible, let them get placed with a family that can wrap their arms around them and help them forget about their dead beat mother that abandoned them.

Terrible Twos

Ok seriously, someone failed to tell me that the terrible twos start around age 1.  This child of mine (Henry), seems to be starting to test me.  You tell him no and he watches you as he does it just one more time to see if anything has changed in that 30 seconds that went by.  We have already implemented the timeout plan.  He hates it by the way he may not understand it quite yet but, too bad.  He is really bad at chasing the dogs, bad idea with the monster that Bob calls his "soulmate" (yeah seriuosly), we started the crib timeout so Henry doesn't get his face tore off!  It breaks my heart to break his heart but, guess somebodys gotta be the bad guy:)