Heartless

I am slightly in shock and the other half of me is not surprised that the kids\' father is refusing to help without a court order. I just accepted a part time job and he makes the comment to me that I shouldn\'t have to work two jobs. Ugh...duh, you Bob should be helping me support the children you helped create. I don\'t get it, how can you bring two beautiful kids into this world and NOT want to help them grow up.
My anger has grown to the point that I am going to put my trust in the child support system. He has already made the comment that he will pull all the money out of his accounts so they can\'t find it. The deadbeat s.o.b. thinks he can get away with murder. Well Bob it\'s not that you have bad luck with women it\'s that your a giant asshole and can\'t think of anyone but yourself. It saddens me to think that this could be the end of the kids\' relationship with their father but, if he acts like this then I don\'t want my kids to adopt his personality either.

Growing Like A Weed

Well in about eight more days my baby Wyatt is going to be 1. How sad, he walks, gets into trouble and tells "yeah yeah" when I say "no no". He plays well with his brother MOST of the time. We call him Frankenbaby because he walks a little like Frankenstein. He has the most dramatic facial expressions, and is a great big ham. I love you Wyatt Charles Lueders:)

New Beginnings

Well, as some of you may or may not know the boys and I have moved in with a good friend of mine. We all get to sleep in beds and boy have my kids learned how to sleep!!!
The boys are in better moods which in turn means mommy is happy as well:). I know people will talk, there will be rumors about why I left but, it was my choice and what I felt was best for the boys and I. On a brighter note Wyatt is walking around with furniture and Henry is on a book kick. He loves to look at books and identify animals and Disney characters. He has an "Elmo Says" book that I suggest if you ever get the chance you read it with him. It is like Simon says and boy is he a hoot with it. Henry is also good at identifying his numbers, we have a book that the kids can press the number and it tells them what it is as the parent reads it to them. He is a very smart boy already;)

Might Be Obsessive Compulsive

I have started making Henry help me pick up toys at 8pm nightly and then we sit down with a couple books before bed. The last two nights I have noticed a pattern. Henry lines up a sheep, horse, and a lamb along the wall. The kicker to all this is their noses have to be facing the wall and the tractors have to be nearby. If I throw one animal in the toy tote or toy box he goes and finds it for his lineup. He might be a little OCD, or maybe just a very organizational child:)

Oh My Naughty Child!

My sweet and lovely child, Henry, has started on his path towards the terrible twos. Last night he threw a bowl and it busted all over the carpet. I put him in timeout and he was better. Tonight he shoved his brother down and sat on him, Wyatt of course was laughing but, when told to get off of him Henry refused thus, he earned another timeout. After all this he wanted to make a peace offering because he tried to lift his brother onto his stuffed horse for a ride. Crazy kids but, I love them dearly:)

Back For Another Go Around

Hello everyone, long time no blog!!!! Lots has happened in the months I\\\'ve been on blog vacation for say. My now 9 month old Wyatt is crawling and moving very quickly!!! My 20 month old Henry is NOT happy about this at all.
The wrestling and fighting has begun and will not stop for a very long time. Sadly enough it is the little guy that seems to come out on top....I think it\\\'s cause Henry is a lover not a fighter:). I promise to try and blog more frequently from here on out so, stay tuned!!

The Past Is The Past

I sit here tonight listen to my sweet Henry run wild yelling and laughing, I can't help but think of who I used to be!  I was on a path to nowhere, drinking nearly every night, late to work, took everything for granted.  Not even two years ago yet it feels like a lifetime ago.  I hardly remember that person..maybe because I don't want to...the person I am now is SO much more fun and rewarding....A Mother!  I love my children with all my heart and Bob to especially for the two gifts he has given me:)